Feeling Overwhelmed

OK, so, I have been wrestling with this issue with my son. His behavior has become more erratic lately. His teacher at school went out on maternity leave and he has a sub. It is also toward the end of the year, so his schedule is thrown off and he doesn't deal well with that. But all that aside, I just keep thinking about this diagnosis---yeah, the one we have not gotten yet. I keep thinking, is there something I could have done differently when I was pregnant? Why him and not me or my husband or my oldest son? I guess we really never will know why, and cannot really question that. This is the way it is and we just have to move on from there. All we can do is pray for guidance I guess. Enough ranting for now.

Well, life continues to be busy. I am still working, duh. I am still praying for my sister to find a job and for my mom. My mom is too sick to work right now. She has just been diagnosed with epilepsy, and she is evidently having little seizures all over her brain all day long. So, she is out of work until they can get that under control. My son's last regular season game was last night, they WON!!!! It really is amazing how emotional I can get at these games. I mean, I watch my husband when he sits through an MLB game, he gets so happy or so mad depending on how his team is doing. I always thought that is just dumb, it is a game being played by people you do not know. Now, of course I will get emotional because my son is playing, but still, it is just a game and I am so affected. I yell at the umpires. I know they are only human, but even an idiot could see the call was horrible. Anyway, we just have the tournaments and them the Select season.

We went for the behavioral testing on my youngest last week. They said that while he is not autistic (that is obvious), they do not beleive he has Asperger's either. They said that he does have some serious quirks, and this would probably end up being a diagnosis of PDD-NOS. I am still reading up on this. I love my little guy dearly, and I do not want to change him. I do, however, need some guidance on dealing with him. He cannot be disciplined as my oldest is, he is difficult to discipline to say the least. He also does not understand many of the social norms. But, we must wait on the final diagnosis, then figure out where to go for the next school year.

SLACKER!!!

Seriously, it has been a year since I posted on here? Shame on me. Well, the year has been filled with a serious roller coaster of ups and downs. I probably should have been posting on here, probably would have been therapeutic for me. I am still crocheting, I still need to lose weight, and I am still not a stay at home mom. However, I am planning to keep on blogging.

So, where to start. I still have the same job, and I still hate it. I think the hatred has become more pronounced, and I think it is starting to be reciprocated. But alas, what can you do. I still have a family to feed and cloth. My husband does work and makes good money, but he is changing jobs. He finally got a job where he can use his degree, but he will be taking a pay cut. My son is on two baseball teams, and man, that is EXPENSIVE!!! Do they realize these are kids....I have seen these little league baseball bats for $400!!! No freakin way I am buying that for my kid!! but, we still had to buy catcher gear, pay registrations, and there are the wonderful tournament fees.

The life of a baseball mom is busy, that is all I can say. We have baseball about 6 days a week, so we dress from laundry baskets, the house is always a mess, and we are hardly home. Seems we are only home long enough to make a mess and sleep anymore. But, one day, my son will be playing in the majors and supporting his wonderful mommy and daddy!

I did finish a few projects this past year. I made a mural of Portrait of Jesus, it turned out beautiful. I also made a few baby blankets along the way. I am now working on a bible cover. I found a few online, but none that really struck my fancy, so I am writing my own filet pattern for it. I will have to post a picture of the work in progress soon.

I am also going to try my hand at the wonderful world of self employment soon. Of course, I will have to keep my full time job whiel I launch things. I am setting up a studio in my garage and hope to begin airbrushing skateboards, batting helmets, and various other items soon. Once I am launched I can hopefully say goodbye to corporate America. What a wonderful world it will be then, at least my part of the world.

I will not bore everyone with the details of the last year. Suffice it to say I am glad that year has passed on and a new one has begun. I hope to blog more often, what is the use of this space if I don't?