The Pains of Life

Well, healthy lifestyle has taken on a whole new meaning for me. I went to the doctor last week after several blood pressure readings that were off the charts. While there he set me up to have some lab work done. He put me on blood pressure meds, which he said I will probably have to take for the rest of my life. So, fast forward to yesterday when they call and say they found something in my blood work and will need to follow up. I already had an appointment set for next week, and they were unwilling to go into details on the phone, so I guess they just called so I could worry for a week and a half.

So, now here I am. I have done this to myself. I have also made a decision. I do not want to die, and I do not want to be dependant on perscriptions. So, I have one choice. Make a change. I must get off my lazy butt, I must eat what I know I should eat. I am terrified, and my husband does not understand where I am. He has the ability to make these changes seem so effortless, and I think that is one frustrating part for me. They are not at all effortless for me. I guess perhaps I have an addiction, or perhaps I am just weak. Whatever it is, it has come to a point where I must overcome this or I WILL DIE. I will not see my grandkids, I will not see my children graduate, I will die and be miserable until I do.

So, today I start. I know it is mid-week, but there is no more starting on Monday for me. Today I will start trying to eat all fresh raw vegetables and fruit. I will eat mostly chicken and fish, but I hope to have 80% of my intake be raw fruit and veggies. I will begin with trying to exercise for 15 minutes a day and work up from there. No matter what, even if I have to walk in circles around my living room. I am tired of crying about this, I am all cried out at this point. I can no longer make excuses, because that is just what they are, excuses. I can do this, and I will do this. Until next time.